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Me: Happily working on TBoHH
*realizes I am coming up to the point where I have to broach the Marin subjct*
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#the blood of heroes' history#ketto's writing misadventures#how did this sneak up so fast?#i put it off until part two last time!#now it's here already!#*calculates when the chapter will drop with current schedule*#this won't come out until january?#i need to change my update schedule#I can't wait that long to share this!#i'll die!
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Oh gosh, how many humans are there?!
Bug Fact: The Giant Malaysian Leaf Insect are mostly female and reproduce asexually. The first wild male of this species was not found until 1994! Pictures Below.
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A,B,C and E are all males, they have visible and functional wings. D is a female and has no wings. Photo Source and Research Paper with more photos
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They even have separate sub-species that have different leaf decay!!
#OMG HUMAN REVEAL#Or at least Sam's mom (Dewi's Aunt) reveal. Dewi's dad is still pretty mysterious >:) hehe#House REVEAL#This is super duper niche BUT.... Dewi saying he's looking for newts is a reference to the movie ''Matilda''. Because I love that movie#and it has influenced my interests!#I learned way too much about the leaf bug and I kind of love it so so much now. I hope they thrive forever#ohhh its raining. Time to put on your rain poncho!#Also I mayyyy change the update schedule to 3 pages a week. I need to catch up and the holidays always slow my art! For good reasons :)#Dewi's Adventures in Hollow Knight#Dewi's Adventures in Hollow Knight V2#hollow knight humans#hornet hollow knight#ghost hollow knight#my art#dewi#comic#hollow knight au#Lilybug Comics#art#Hollow Knight#hollow knight fanart#hk fanart#hollow knight comic#hollow knight art#hk art#hk au
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✨Introduction✨
Deciding to add some information as well as update this a bit as it’s a tad outdated! (Update part 11, updated fandom list (your welcome torch /silly)
💜 Some starter info!
• I go by (in order of preference): Cro/Mossy.Paws (or just Mossy)/Marine/Ocean; and if I know you in real life, you can call me Sea!
• I am an Aceflux potential-lesbian! I also use Any pronouns!
Current Fandoms/interest’s list: Phighting!, Neon Genesis Evangelion, SOMA (2015), Transformers, The Mandela Catalogue, Vocaloid, The Magnus Archives, regretevator, lethal company, little nightmares, Hollow knight, rainworld, Spider-Man, Warrior cats, life series, PRESSURE, Dungeon Meshi, Parkour civilization, Just Shapes And Beats, ULTRAKILL, project moon games, limbus company etc. (If you ask me or talk to me about any of these I will cry tears of joy /silly) (these aren’t listed from most to least interested also! I love all of these equally)
minor (14-17 age range)
Comms: Open for discord nitro and robux! (DM me here or at ^-Mossy.Paws-^ on discord for extra information!)
Asks: Open (read below for permissions)
Instagram: The_OceanCat
Twitter: Mossypawsss
Pinterest: Mossy.Paws (Important note: I rarely post to Pinterest, I only post on Pinterest to avoid my art getting stolen.)
Strawpage, just if you wanna send me any fun doodles and stuff :3!, it will be updated later! https://mossypawssspage.straw.page
Artfight link: https://artfight.net/~Mossy-Paw
Feel free to use my art for profiles and or banners! It’s a little preferred that you ask first via dm’s/comments/reblog’s but honestly I don’t mind :DD! Just make sure to credit me if you do! It’ll make my day for sure ^^!
I have tags I use now! :DD! Here they are
#Cro chatter (used mainly for when I’m just chatting/reblogging stuff/etc)
#Friend art (used when reblogging stuff by close friends)
#Phighting! Magnus Archives au (This Tag is used for my most recent Wip of a crossover Au or TMA x PHIGHTING! Currently on major hiatus as I must focus on other interests and personal life.)
Any art tags or fandom related tags explain themself ! I also use #Not my art a lot as well!
• I only have like one irl friend who follows me on here and most likely you have seen her harass me in my reblog’s or askbox,,, please ignore our shenanigans we are not normal /silly /love ya Rosa 💖
• An important note: I do not have a reblog only account, this is my only account, and its used for pretty much everything (My art, reblog’s, talking, etc, if you would prefer to only see art I recommend blocking the #Cro Chatter tag as I attach it to all of my askbox replies (minus requests)
‼️Commission Info:‼️
✨ My commission’s are OPEN!
• I take payment in form of Discord Nitro (NOT BASIC), and Robux!
• If interested, please dm me for prices, questions, and more! I’ll be sure to give you a full rundown of what I can draw, my rules, etc!
• Please figure out what you would like in full detail BEFORE contacting me. Any extras or whatnot that may be concerns/curiosities/or whatever though I am happy to answer questions or inquire about!
• If you are unsure but have a basic idea, I can also help you out with that as well!
My commission carrd: (Only covers prices for Robux comms!)
✨ My Askbox (OPEN)
✅Open ❌Closed ❎Tentative
✅/❎ Requests (This really just depends on what the ask is about, if it’s for my aus then it’s most likely a yes, if it’s just a misc art request or what not then it’s a 50/50). I am unfortunately pretty wrapped up in personal art most of the time, but I will try to answer an art request every once in awhile here.
❎/✅Talk to me
✅✅Ask about my Oc’s/Au’s/etc (always yes with this one I will be INCREDIBLY happy!)
✅Ask about my HCs
❌OC Requests (Usually no)
❄️ Read Before Asking
I'll delete asks I'm uncomfortable with.
NO nsfw or suggestive, you’ll be blocked and reported as I am a minor with no tolerance for that.
Requests will open and close as needed, and I will let you know when they open again!
I will try to get to every request, but it may take it a bit since I’m a full time student who has a life outside of art and social media lol
Some asks I may take longer to respond to than others (sorry to the poor soul who asked for a sleepy catshot doodle back in fucking DECEMBER 2023 you’ll get your catshot soon I swear 😭)
‼️Disclaimers
Do not steal, trace, copy, or claim my art to be yours, certain things like designs for canon characters and stuff I’m fine with you taking inspiration from (!!ASK FIRST!!), or using with credit (a small note, I am completely fine with you using my designs as long as you credit me! If anything, I appreciate it very much that people like them enough to do so :3!)
Proshippers, homo/transphobes, mean or generally gross people DNI‼️ it’s also preferred that if you have NSFW/highly suggestive stuff/or fetish content on your account that you don’t follow me, as I tend to check the profiles of people who follow me and I don’t want to see that (I would also prefer my parents do not see that if they were to ever check my account LOL)
Please don't make highly suggestive or NSFW comments towards me, my oc’s, or characters, you’ll be blocked if you do so; I am relatively alright with very minor and safe suggestive stuff from friends, but even then if it’s art related, please confirm if it’s alright with me. Very close friends get a slight pass with this as long as it’s in good fun and safe, but if pushed I will not tolerate it and will give you a warning.
I’m still learning how to use this website so please be polite and patient with me :’>
If you draw fanart of my OCs, AUs, or Headcanons, please tag me!! I absolutely love to see fanart and it makes my day! :DD!
‼️Important note: my blog will sometimes contain art that has blood, gore, violence, bright colors, horror media, etc. These WILL be put under spoiler tags though, but a lot of the older ones are not, so please be careful! (A note, I don’t tend to draw stuff like that too often unless you count my TMA au, so no need to worry about it too much!)‼️
⭐️ Extra information about me
• I am a young minor with diagnosed autism, adhd, and ocd, I also have slight social anxiety, so please, PLEASE be patient with me, as I can have trouble communicating, understanding things, or coming up with responses
• Never be afraid to approach me about anything, although I’m a bit nervous talking to new people, I adore making new friends, just please don’t be weird, if you make me outright uncomfortable I will most likely block you.
• For fanart and such, feel free to contact me about it if you need ideas, permissions, reference images, or need to know anything important!
• I’m a full time school student and can be relatively busy, I also have notifications off on all platforms, so I may be slow to respond if you dm me or try to contact me.
• I’m a huge nerd and absolutely love talking about my interests, but if I ever get too excited or overbearing, never be afraid to just tell me to take a chill pill or calm down, I can promise you I will not be angry! Communication is key with me since I can have issues understanding others, if I’m ever too much to handle, just say it! I’ll greatly appreciate it as it helps me to grow and be a better person ^^!
• If you talk to me about my interests I will be the happiest soul alive, I am INSANE about my hyperfixations and love love LOVEEEE talking about them
Here’s the link to my Carrd!
(it also includes commission rules and such!)
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#blog intro#intro post#introducing myself#Art#my art#artists on tumblr#oc artwork#introduction#introductory post#pinned intro#pinned post#open commissions#commission#commission info#Update numba 9!#Once again updating this thing at like 1 in the morning lmfao#updated my hyperfixation list/fixed any small mistakes/changed up some stuff/etc etc!#Not the BIGGEST of updates but eh I’ve been needing this for a bit LMAO#Anyways guess who’s been getting into NGE lately. MEEEEEEE expect some art for that soon!#Most specifically I’m making a few EVA Shimeji’s (Kaworu will be posted first and then I’ll be doing Rei and Shinji Next)#Asuka may or may not be getting one it just depends on how much time I have#oh also I watched both venom movies and transformers one today so expect MAYBE some art for that but it’s a 50/50 and depends on my schedul#aka I really wanna draw symbiote Avery o’adam’s again…..#ANYWAYS it’s late on a school night I gotta go to sleep#NINIIIII
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ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ Sup ya’ll
It’s been a lonnnnnnng while since I updated this art blog, I know. I fully intended to upload things by the end of 2024, but the holidays left me busy and exhausted.
There’s a lot to say about the last year and my goals for 2025, but for now, I'll use the next week to play some catch-up with sharing my artwork each evening. This will just include the major art and characters I got to in the year, but for other updates and tidbits, feel free to visit and follow me on Bluesky!
#text#tenicola#// little heads up for the spam but I'll stagger them to about 2-3 uploads each day#// I'm glad that tumblr has a solid drafting and schedule/queue-ing system; that's so under-utilized on other platforms#// On another note -- I’ve locked my Twitter accounts + deactivated Facebook and will likely do the same with Instagram this month#// I am fed-up with their vile policy changes and misuse of data privacy; so it's a few less social media to worry about#// Bluesky has been great (not flawless but it had a good community); And while Tumblr isn't perfect I have a soft spot for this platform#// I'll keep up with those platforms at the very least; and I'll also update my carrd and my websites as needed
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The Healthcare horrors persist
Hhhhhhhhhhhhhh
#Updates on this whole mess:#Im insured under my dad#he has Healthcare option 1 which is government provided since he is retired millitary and option 2 due to his new job#after his retirement option 1 went funky for me and changed things around meaning i was no longer able to be seen by my pcp#Im also unable to log in to any of my accounts for 1 so im not sure whats going on there and what plan of 1 i have specifically#so i switched to a new pcp which accepted option 2 (which was super hard to find) literally last week#made an appointment with her for next month so i can finally get answers about my funky blood test results#(which is still don't know what specifically is wrong with it! for all i know i could just have high cholesterol-#or i could have markers for rheumatoid arthritis instead of my prior fibromyalgia diagnosis!)#(i also do not get refils for my anxiety medication until i have an appointment with my new doctor)#crisis averted right? WRONG!#I just got a call from my Dad saying he is switching jobs so I am no longer insured under 2#meaning...#1) i need to call option 1 and figure out how to get into my accounts and what my insurance is#2) check that this pcp acceprs said insurance#3) find yet another pcp if she doesnt and make an appointment for god knows when#and here is the kicker:#since option 1 is government and millitary based it is going to take FOREVER to get anything done#And Im not sure if they are going to want me to renew my millitary dependent ID or not#because that shit is EXPIRED and i was under the impression i can no longer renew it due to his retirement#but also in order to make any acoount with option 1 they require a benefits number which expires alongside the ID#Then on the other side of things i also have my wisdom teeth surgery to schedule (through my mom thank god)#and school starting again in a few weeks#going to defenestrate myself istg
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I finally have my interview for the trade school I’ve been trying to get into since last summer and I want to fucking vom
#the whole thing has been so stressful and complicated for no reason#this was supposed to happen over a month ago#it took like 6 emails just to schedule an interview and i literally waited over 3 weeks just for them to send me a link to schedule it#why couldn’t the recruiter send me that in the first email instead of telling me i need to email someone else to schedule the interview??#and i was looking at the google calendar invite and it says it’s at the actual school but every time that i asked they said it was by phone#they also told me class was tues/thurs and then they updated it like 2 weeks ago to mon/wed so fuck if i know they may have changed it#i’m so over it. i’m really just trying to do something productive with my life but this experience is making me want to rip my hair out
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The next time I post a multichapter, odds are I won't have the penultimate draft of the entire thing on the ready. We'll be way closer to working chapter by chapter*, baby!
(*I won't start posting before I have a FUNCTIONAL draft of the entire thing because omg)
#teruyo talk#sorry in advance to everyone who prefers fast-paced updates#but i actually quite like slower update schedules as a reader#and crucially i feel like i've driven myself into a corner by obsessing over being able to rush through posting if necessary#i had a way better time editing white lotus and the immortals for a reason#and i assume why it took me FOREVER to finish tenshi disappears which is really a simple fic#is that i felt i HAD to have it all done even though in retrospect the rough draft would've been sufficient as a starting point#i mean it's also pretty short so this approach was still fine but going forward i need to change things around#SO a relaxed schedule for the next multichapter(s) it is#this isn't even relevant right now since i have a couple of things to wrap up before i get to those broken multichapters#and you'll never believe this#I'M ILL AGAIN#my fever's gone now so maybe i can edit today but my throat is so goddamn congested ARGH#literally began the day after i wrapped up posting LMAO and out of nowhere too#BUT LET'S KEEP FIGHTING#all of us. hang in there
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All is totally fine. I'm starting uni again in less than two weeks and none of my classes have put up any information yet in any shape or form its fiiiiine
#i only have my schedule#that has now changed to me being double booked across the city#and one of my classes is at a theatre and there is something about a film pass being recquired???#like fine ill buy what i need to buy but idk what that is supposed to be#so like#can they please update 😭😭😭
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sorry to keep posting about my job but [farnsworth voice] great news everyone! im working significantly less hours next week (or according to the schedule i looked at five seconds ago its not up in the app yet) so ill be back on the writing grindset. my preferred grindset.
#love the paycheck i get but i wanna write not be sludge when i get home#if i could make writing x reader fanfic a full time job i would#maybe one day i’ll actually write a book but fanfic is infinitely more fun#if my schedule turns out to be busy next week you WILL be hearing from me#i keep putting off writing the hiwthi chapter because its one of those ones that i have absolutely no ideas just a concept for it#and its the chapter RIGHT before the horror bros are introduced and im like man i just wanna intro the horror bros NOW#but i must remain steadfast to my papyrus and sans skateboarding chapter#the slice of life is slice of lifing#i have SO much planned for the beach episode#its like a sitcom#stuff happens. blue gets jealous. stretch is awkward. lord is neurotic. and red is mad again#and scooters just like. damn one bruh after the other#theyre surrounded by fools which is funny because they jingle just as much#nemesis & nike is trucking im excited for what ive affectionately dubbed the Eye Moment#and so my garden grows WILL get an update i am just flying by the seat of my pants on that one#there is absolutely zero planning just vibes and i need to change that#and the first chapter of weapons wrapped in lamb skin has been rewritten#ive just been debating on deleting the og or not#because i know its kind of a shit move to delete fics but i dont wwnna orphan it and also i HAAAAAATE it#idk if anyone actually reads this nonsense lmk#anyway byyyyyyeeee rambling again
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Ohhh I’m gonna kill this bitch. Same coworker who fucked up the worksheets did it again. Since my computer caught on fire, I’m working solely from an iPad which takes away some of the capabilities I had on the computer. I made the worksheet for today on SATURDAY and asked my coworker to reformat it for me to make it look like our other ones. She said sure. It’s Wednesday morning. I need it for my second period class. She hasn’t done it yet.
I’m not even technically asking for a favor because SHE TEACHES THIS CLASS TOO. SHE NEEDS THIS PAPER TOO! WHY IS IT UNFINISHED????
#personal#on Google docs it says she’s looking at the document#so I’m hoping she does it in the 16 minutes before her first class#(we’re on a slightly different schedule)#if she doesn’t do it#I’ll just have to pray I get to school early enough#to edit it on one of the computers#update: it no longer says she’s working on it#and nothing has changed#and my train isn’t even halfway there#second update: and I just remembered I need a Spanish version#kill me
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‼️ update please see my pinned for all current updates ‼️
The Florida Department of Environmental Protection (FDEP) announced an initiative yesterday proposing major changes to various State Parks throughout Florida.
Today, with only one week's notice, FDEP announced public meetings throughout the state scheduled for 3 p.m. on Tuesday, August 27th. The meetings will consist of a presentation and an opportunity for public comment, but with only an hour allotted, they do not appear to include a question-and-answer period.
To voice your concerns about these proposals and the lack of public participation, send your customizable email to the Governor, the Secretary of FDEP, and your state representatives. Adding your connection to Florida's State Parks in the email can help them understand how important this issue is to you, their constituent.
if you are able to make it to one of these, i strongly recommend you do. otherwise please send a message. we dont need fucking golf and pickleball in our already threatened natural areas
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Doomed by the Narrative.
Bug Fact: Each species of Firefly have their own pattern of light flashing.
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#I think I may change the update schedule to 1 page a day. It's much easier to do.#I don't like clogging up my scrolling. but it's a small price to pay for my brain to stop screaming I need to hurry up.#That's not a promise though as some days I wont have time to draw. Or some days I may have 2 pages. This is just a rough estimate.#bread#art#my art#hollow knight#hollow knight knight#hollow knight hornet#hollow knight quirrel#hollow knight au#hollow knight humans#dewi#Dewi's Adventures in Hollow Knight
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Fuck it, Im going to try to do that note thing couse I need motivation
Probably no one will see this but it's worth a try
5. I'll play with my dog completed
10. I'll go for a walk completed
30. I'll study for a test I have in two days completed
50. I'll try understanding one of the subjects I don't get in physics class in progress (delayed couse I have like three tests next week and I need to study for them first)
75. I'll clean my desk completed
100. I'll clean my room in progress
150. I'll work on my scrapbook will be done once I clean my room
200. I'll try to go to sleep earlier in progress
300. I'll try changing my medication talked about it with my parents, currently trying to get a new perscription
500. I'll get therapy scheduled a meeting, lets hope it goes well!
1000. I'll try being more active (maybe start going to the gym) I'll try
1500. I'll tell my mom im bi
2000. I'll tell my dad im bi
WTF why are people seeing this
@thecrazyalchemist I blame you
Alright from now on its five comments per person
Update: I don't have a grade yet but I think the test went well
Update 2: got 97 in the test lets goooo
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Yes it is 2:40am in the morning but I just wanted to let you all know that I’m heading on a cruise with my family today until Sunday so I will be off Tumblr until then
I’ll try to check for messages or activity during our stops but until then, have a wonderful holiday season, loves!
#Tbh not looking forward to 7am#I have to say bye to my beloved dog for a sitter#He’s like my emotional support dog for real so I always cry whenever I have to leave him#Hashtag anxiety#It’s the best#<— lying#anxiety can go join the Perry Johansson movies and jump off a cliff#And I’ll miss any potential Cass updates#Ahajshsjsjsjsjs#Also my family sprung this on me two days ago#Excuse me ma’am I very likely have autism and I 100% do have anxiety#I need three to five business days to process a change in schedule#My whole Christmas gift making process has been throwinoff#And it’s okay don’t worry after only two panic attacks I have changed my tactics and now have a plan to make Christmas gifts for my family#Also tags have a word limit#Who knew#This is getting long and I need at least ONE hour of sleep#Goodnight my darlings~#saph thoughts
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only then, i am good || one shot
joel miller x f!reader
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pairing: daddy jackson!joel x f!reader summary: you have a bad day in which it makes you question your worth. only joel can make you see the truth. warnings: jackson era [well into the tlou2 timeline but nothing bad happens], implied age gap [i warn you, joel is old old], angst [in the form of internal turmoil], feelings of guilt/burdening, established relationship, dd/lg dynamics, soft daddy dom!joel, daddy kink, praise kink, size kink, finger sucking, pet names galore [baby, sweetheart, little girl, angel] size kink, reader is hella needy, reader has pubic hair bc i said so, smidgen of cockwarming, just the tip mention, dubcon*, dacryphilia, unprotected piv, nipple play, belly bulge, creampie, joel is reader’s personal weighted blanket, fluff, aftercare. *reader is not in the right headspace to properly consent to piv but she’s a-okay with it! word count: 3.8k
a/n: i’ve been to emotional (and physical) hell and back (are we back? who knows) these last few weeks and it had me yearning for daddy jackson!joel. so this is what this is. it’s a tad different from my typical style of writing and it’s not betaed and very very loosely proofread (barely looked thru it while in the waiting room lol), so it’s probably shit but i hope you enjoy it nonetheless xx
You should’ve double-checked the lock. Triple-checked it. As always. Hand to God, it slipped your mind. You were tired. Achy and sleepy, and you just wanted to go home. Back to Joel. Curl your spent body into the thick, burly warmth of his and let him cradle you until the whole day wipes itself from memory.
You’ve been asking them for more responsibilities — a more serious role within Jackson, for months. After today, you’re sure they’ll never take you seriously. Never see you as one of them. They’re so much older and wiser — experienced. And you…well, you are not.
They never fuck up. Never make mistakes that would risk losing an important asset to this safe haven. And today you have. You fucked up. You don’t know how you forgot. It’s been your only job here, the only thing they let you have, and still — you messed it up.
You forgot to lock the stall door to the stable for one of the horses. And not only did the horse escape but now the town is technically down one patrolman. You have completely thrown off the patrolling schedule, one that was meticulously crafted and has been in place long before you arrived in Jackson. It very rarely changed.
You offered to lend a hand, practically begged them to send you out with the rest of the search party. But Maria, Tommy, and Joel all told you to go home while they sent a group (of which included Joel and Tommy themselves) outside the gates, well past dusk, to go looking for him. You felt entirely useless.
Begrudgingly, you scurried home, a beaten puppy in need of licking one’s wounds. Feeling the weight of the day and the frustration that has accumulated over months suddenly seeping into your bones, and you just…broke. You crawled into bed, alone in the dark, and you cried for hours, your mind spiraled, turning over the mistake you made, again and again and again.
When it stops and the wracking sobs slow into shuddery hiccups, it’s only because you hear heavy footsteps in the hallway. Slow. Tired. But steady — sure. And that nauseating sensation in the pit of your stomach returns as the footsteps grow closer and closer.
The door creaks open slowly, pale yellow light from the hallway spills through the crack, your puffy eyes squint and flutter against the sudden light, shape of him vague in your blurry vision, but you know it’s him: tall frame, broad shoulders, pale skin, and dark features.
Joel.
You curl your body tighter, making yourself as small as possible. Close your eyes, and bury your tear-stained face back into the damp royal blue of his linens, the piney scent of him everywhere: his pillows, his sheets, his mattress, clouding your mind. You hear his footsteps as he rounds the bed, feel him reach over and switch on the lamp beside you. He grunts, his joints creak as you feel his weight sinking the edge of the bed, settling himself down in the ‘c’ shape your body had formed.
“We found him. Fella was out by Hidden Pines,” voice soft, almost cautious.
You nod silently, but you don’t look at him, not wanting to embarrass yourself even more, not wanting him to see how pathetic you look after spending hours upon hours sobbing into the pillows over a mistake you made.
A heavy hand cups your knee over the sheets, thumb stroking bone through the fabric there.
“It wasn’t your fault, baby.” He says, surely.
But you don’t really believe him.
You sniffle and tilt your face away from the tear-soaked pillows just enough so he can hear you. “Yes, it was. I was the last one in there. It’s my job to take the horses back and settle them in for the night. My job to make sure they stay in the stables. It’s been my job, my only job all this time, and I can’t even do that right,” you ramble, voice breaking, bottom lip wobbling, fat tears pricking your red eyes once again.
“No. You listen here,” he says sternly, feeling his body turn beside you, bed covers bunching up around your knees. “You did lock it, but the latch was loose, honey. Tommy and I tried ‘em. They’re due for a fixin’ n’ we should’ve been checkin’ ‘em, but that’s my job, not yours. This wasn’t on you, darlin’. You hear me?”
You avoid his eye and stay furled on the bed. Silence swells between you, and you fiddle with a stray thread in his sheets.
“He wasn’t supposed to take off like that, but he’s a younger horse,” he shrugs, and a sigh falls from his lips. “It happens. Whoever was mannin’ the wall tonight should’ve seen him. Many things were at play, baby. It wasn’t your fault.” He says in a matter-of-fact tone.
Your head snaps over your shoulder in a fury. “I could’ve helped fix it. I could’ve made it right,” you bite, shaky voice laced with venom. You don’t mean for it to sound so harsh, but it manages to stifle the sob that threatens to claw up your throat. And for a second, the irritation in your voice doesn’t rattle you until you notice Joel’s shoulders tense, and you regret it immediately.
A whirlpool of emotions swirls in your belly. A weird noise squeaks out from your lips as you try to fruitlessly blink away the sleep and salt in your eyes. You don’t want to cry in front of him. You bury your face into the pillow again, trying to muffle the sob-like groan as you cringe away from Joel, ashamed.
His hand drifts up your thigh, broad palm splayed across your flesh, his touch unwavering. “Sweetheart, the only reason I told you to stay here s’because it ain’t safe out there. The amount of infected may be less this time o’year but the cold…” He trails off, his grip tightening around the meat of your thigh unconsciously, “makes people meaner,” his voice grows unsteady at the thought.
You shiver, and you suspect he feels it. He clears his throat, and tender fingers brush the strands of hair out of your face, then they trail down, and you feel the cold roughness of his skin against the warm softness of yours as his calloused hand cups your jaw, tilting it to face him, forcing you to meet his eyes.
Your eyes pinch shut, and the dam breaks. You can’t bear to look at him. Your heart sits heavy in your chest, feeling the guilt creeping back in at his touch. His hands, usually warm, are now icy cold, and all you can think about is how you are the cause of it. He had been out in the cold longer than he needed to be because of you. You and he both know his worn bones can’t handle it, and yet, he went out there in the dead of winter as nightfall cloaked over Jackson to right your wrong, and it makes you feel terrible.
“Baby. Look at me,” he whispers softly.
You do, and through bleary eyes you meet his weary gaze. His lips are downturned into a frown, and with a twist in his brows, that worry line in the middle of his forehead materializes. You hate being the cause of it. Your heart plops to your stomach, your throat goes thick, something rising at the base of it.
“What do you need, sweetheart? Tell me,” he implores, his voice stern but soft, eyes shifting back and forth between yours — dark amber irises so warm, pleading.
Teach me to be good. “Just you, daddy – just need you,” you blubber, your voice innocent and small. Weak.
He knows exactly what you mean. You have been together long enough that he reads you like an open book. You watch as he wordlessly toes off his boots with a thud. Watch as he moves to stand to unbuckle his belt, dropping it to the floor with a soft clink, his jeans, jacket, and flannel following shortly after. Watch as he shifts onto the bed, bones crackling as he lowers himself and presses his broad form into you, his knees popping as they coax yours open. Watch as one of his hands drifts south between your bodies to grip the thick root of his cock while the other bunches up your nightgown to your navel, revealing your unobstructed cunt to him.
You whimper when the leaky head of his cock notches at the already slippery entrance of your cunt. He glides the wide cockhead between your folds, up and down, up and down, while the warmth of his breath fans across your face when his lips part to murmur, just the tip tonight, baby, s’not a good idea for you to take all o’me right now, alright?
You nod numbly. You don’t care how much he gives you — you just need to feel him. Need him to fix you. Need him to make the hurt you feel inside go away. Need him to search for the good. Maybe it’s there, buried deep in a place only he can find.
His hands find yours, pins them firmly above your head, and with his dark gaze holding yours, he very gently pushes his tip inside your tight, wet hole. His mouth pops open in a deep groan, and you catch it with a soft gasp of your own.
“There you go. S’that feel better, pretty baby?” He murmurs, his jaw ticks, brows twitch.
You nod desperately, your wide, glassy eyes going hooded. Your thighs tense around him, causing a little more of his cock to push inside, making you whimper and squirm beneath him.
“Good. Now just listen to my voice. Just focus on me, right here,” he grunts haggardly, voice so low and commanding. And that alone makes your brain go fuzzy.
You try to focus all your energy on his voice and the heavy weight of him on top of you and the fat tip of his cock stretching your too little hole open, but suddenly, he pulls out, and you almost whine at his absence.
But Joel doesn’t give you enough time.
Your body moves up the bed with a jolt, gasping when his hips push forward with more force, filling your cunt with the head of his cock, and then some more, only to slip out of you again immediately after. He’s toying with you, and he’s doing so because he knows you really need this.
He slips his cockhead gently back inside you, and you whine at the soft squelch your slicken pussy makes. The two of you revel in the lewd, wet sounds that ricochet through the room, all while never breaking eye contact.
“My little girl just needed me to fuck all the bad thoughts away, hm?” he breathes, his nose brushes against yours.
“Mmhm,” you sigh, cunt flittering around him.
“Needed me to stretch out her sweet little hole and make everything better, s’that it?”
You nod frantically, moaning breathlessly.
Joel growls. “Say yes, daddy,” he commands you softly, his fingers squeezing yours.
“Y—ye—yes, d–daddy.” Your words come out broken in between the slow rolls of his hips, but by the smirk that tugs on his lips, you know he’s proud of you anyway.
“Good girl,” he praises, his touch featherlight as his fingers push the stray strands of hair away from your forehead, and the scruff of his chin tickles your nose as he lays an open-mouthed kiss between your furrowed brows.
“But daddy—” you start to protest, scrunching your nose.
Joel harrumphs as he pulls back. All of his features pull into a stern look, and to stop you, the pad of his roughened thumb sweeps across your cheek and sinks between your parted lips.
“Na-uh. No fightin’ with daddy,” he presses gently.
By instinct, your lips close around his digit, sucking it into your mouth and swirling your tongue around the thick of it, tasting the salty, woodsy flavor of him, and it only feeds the foggy haze in your mind more.
Spit pools at the corner of your lips. His thumb moves in and out of your mouth, matching the rhythm of his thrusts as he fucks his cockhead in and out of your hole. Your mind begins to blur, but there’s still a storm stirring in your swollen eyes, and Joel, as always, can see it.
“Alright, this ain’t workin’,” he sighs exasperatedly.
And you think he’s utterly fed up with you not obeying him. He unsticks his body from yours, and your eyes search his face — the lines beside his eyes, the hairs in his brows, the muscles around his lips — trying to decode the emotion that flits across his features. Though, as expected, it’s near impossible to read him. Joel may have been able to crack you open, and although the years he has spent in Jackson have managed to soften him up — tiny cracks in his stony exterior over time — he remains inscrutable.
For a moment, you think he’s going to scold you. Tell you you’re no good for him anymore. You wouldn’t blame him. You can’t seem to do anything right. Maybe he thought he wanted to take you apart, bit by careful bit. But what if he peered through the gap and saw something he didn’t like? What if he had a change of heart — now that he stepped back and assessed the damage? What if the severity of it was too much to mend? Burden too heavy to carry. He doesn’t deserve that. He deserves someone good. Someone not in need of fixing. Someone unbroken.
But Joel surprises you. His hand retracts from your face, and instead wraps his arm around your middle, maneuvering you onto his thighs so you're straddling him. His free hand fists the hem of your nightgown, and in one swift motion, tugs the fabric over your head and tosses it aside to join his pile of clothes on the floor. His heavy hands find your waist once again, and with the head of his cock still buried deep in between your legs, he sits up and back against the headboard, grunting a low, alright, c'mere, as he takes you with him with ease.
You cling to him like a koala, body putty and pliant as he brings your weak arms to wrap around his neck. And then, a firm hand moves to cradle the back of your neck, lets you nuzzle your wet face into the dip in his shoulder, and breathe in the comfort of his scent while his other traverses the line of your spine.
Slow but steady, Joel bucks his hips up, up, up, until the entirety of his thick length works its way into the slick slide of your cunt. Your soft thatch of curls meets his, softly grazes your clit, and you writhe in his arms, sniffle, and whimper brokenly against his shoulder, but sure, gentle hands pull you into his chest tighter. You feel the strong drum of his heart against yours, thrumming against each other: ga-gung, ga-gung, ga-gung, pace quickening, like they're trying to catch up, trying to sync. Your body melts into his. Skin to skin, heart to heart, heat of your cunt to the heat of his cock; and then suddenly, two become one.
“Shh, shhh, I know, baby, I know. You got it,” he whispers, as he begins to rock you back and forth, back and forth, lulling you gently back into the haze, and everything finally fades away.
He presses a kiss right behind your ear. “Therrrre we go, just take it, good girl,” he murmurs as a heavy hand pets your hair. And whether he’s talking about his cock or his praise, you obey regardless. Your cunt sucks the heat of his cock in deep. Let him fuck himself into you; let his warmth smolder you until your cunt ignites. Let it roar and burn and spread through your system like wildfire. Let him make you good.
The tips of his fingers move through your hair in small ministrations, gently scratching away at your skull. “Daddy—s–so big—” you whimper, your fingers pulling the hair at the nape of his neck, tears welling up in your eyes as something low in your belly begins to churn.
“Shhh, angel, it’s okay. I know, s’a lot,” he soothes, feeling his deep voice reverberate against your chest. Your cunt contracts at his praise, and the steady pace of his hips falters briefly; he groans deeply when he feels his tip choked tight within your walls, “you’re doin’ so good for me, sweetheart, so good.”
He continues his shallow thrusts while he rocks you in his arms. There’s a low static buzz in your ears, but you can still hear the perverse chant that manages to fall from your lips — one that grows louder with every roll of his hips, daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy. And in turn, he murmurs incessant blabbers of, you’re okay, angel, daddy’s here, daddy’s gotcha, into your hair, punctuating every one of his words with a soft kiss to your temple and a slow buck of his hips.
The tip of his cock nudges that soft ridge deep inside you, and he feels your cunt flutter around him. “You gonna come for me, angel, hm? You gonna be a real good girl for daddy and let me feel this drippy little pussy come all over me?” He coos.
“Uh-huh,” you murmur.
Deft fingers curl around the back of your neck, and with the slightest of pressure, he squeezes once, gently instructing you to use your words. A silent command.
“Y-yes, daddy, I prom–I promise, I wanna be good. I wanna be good,” you mewl.
His nose drags along the side of your face, down, down, down, until his heated lips meet your pulse point. “Go on, baby, let go n’ get daddy all messy. Show daddy how good of a girl you are,” he rambles, his voice a low vibration, goosebumps prickling in its wake.
With your tight cunt full and impaled on his cock, your clit throbs, eager for more friction. You rut your hips against his, humping him like a dog in heat as you rub your puffy pearl against the graying curls there, smearing him in your slick just as he insisted.
And within seconds, your body constricts, navel pulls taut, and then something fiery in your belly erupts. Your body begins to tremble as stars burst behind your eyelids, liquid heat turns your mind and body molten, melting away completely with the force of your release.
“Daaaddy,” you cry, lips quivering. Your muscles go lax, and your body slumps in his hold, feeling the last of your energy leaving you. Your head lulls back, and his hand slides up the base of your neck in time to catch it in his massive palm.
He clutches you tight, marveling at your fucked-out form in his arms while babbling praises of, ohhh–that’s it, that’s it, good job, baby, such a good fuckin’ girl— daddy’s so proud of you, as warm tears roll down your face. And it only spurs him on.
His languid strokes speed up, your body jolts above him violently, weeping cunt fluttering repeatedly around him. Your mouth falls open, wanton moans escape past your parted lips as he fucks you harder. “Christ, that’s it, that’s my girl. Look at you, perfect little thing,” he pants, coaxing you through your orgasm.
His eyes drop quickly to watch the bounce of your tits, nipples peaked and gleaming with beads of sweat. He dips his head to one sticky breast, and with a flick of his hot tongue, he laps up the salt on your skin.
It elicits a sharp gasp from you, your chewed fingernails desperately trying to claw at him, your body arching against his mouth, and you feel him grin against the curve of your breast. His mouth drifts, wraps his whiskered lips around your other swollen nipple, tongue swirls the pointed bud, teasing you with a graze of his teeth across the wet peak before nipping it, tugging the stiffened point ever so slightly between his teeth.
“Daddy–oh!” You choke on a moan, and your spent pussy clenches around him so tight, your cunt is almost forcing him out. His hips buck into you harder in response, his thrusts growing more erratic as he seeks his own release.
Joel hisses, mouth releasing your tit with a wet pop, “sweet Jesus, m’gonna give it to you real good, baby—like you deserve, fuck—”
He's cut off by the strangled groan that rips through his chest, his back arches off the headboard, and you feel him twitch. His grasp on your enervated form tightens, and then a blazing heat spreads inside you. His sweaty forehead falls to your dampened chest, the swell of your breasts cushioning the drop of his head, his body convulsing as he pumps upwards into your core. Cock pulsing and spasming within your walls as he continues to spill inside you, your belly swelling and set to burst full of his seed.
Joel slumps back against the headboard, his arms loosen, but they don’t release you, just holds you there on top of him as he presses hasty kisses and whispers shaky sweet nothings into your hair while his hot seed dribbles out around his length, turning the hair at the root of his cock into a pool of sticky milky white.
You don’t know if it’s minutes or hours that pass by as you stay limp in his lap, breathing in the sweat and sex on his skin as you snuggle back into his neck, the heat a low simmer. But when he runs a warm, wet rag between your legs and uses the same one to wipe your mixed wet off of his shaft before he tucks you in with a peck to your lips, the tip of your nose, a long kiss to your forehead, and lays himself on top of you with the full weight of him, pulling the comforter up to trap the heat of your bodies between you, sore cunt plugged with his softened cock once more, you know that he makes you feel whole. Not ruined or broken. Not stupid or useless or helpless. And in truth, it's all you’ve ever known with him.
As you slip gently into the waiting black, small fingers that draw circles into his silver curls come to a slow, you think you hear a quiet sigh — feel his lips lazily form around the words against your tacky skin — something of, you are good, angel tucked away into the valley between your naked breasts like a secret. And you think you believe him, and for now, that’s enough for you.
#i'm fighting for my life so if anyone sees my husband tell his ass to come home asap!!!!#anyway this goes out to my homies who are perfectionists who think the world will implode over one small mishap#it won't and ily ❤️🩹#joel miller#joel miller x reader#joel miller x f!reader#jackson!joel x reader#joel miller fic#joel miller smut#joel miller fanfiction#the last of us fanfiction#daddy!joel#tw daddy kink#noelle's workshop
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Mentally preparing myself to go into work and argue with my managers-yet again-about scheduling me to work on Tuesdays. They know that's the one day I have no availability. I can work all the other days of the week, anytime they want, just not Tuesday. Yet every now and then they conveniently "forget", and schedule me to work that day. They did it for this week and next week. They'll probably ask me to "make an exception" this time. Absolutely not.
Once a few months ago I did that, because we were preparing for a corporate visit, and then they argued with me for 2 weeks that I should be able to work Tuesdays since I was able to come in that one time. You give em an inch and they take a mile. Never again.
#and it especially sucks because I have an important appointment this Tuesday#Im going to the eye doctors for the first time in 5 years#because my glasses broke. and they'll want to update my prescription#and I need my glasses. I can't postpone this appointment for work#I've been without glasses for 2 days already#its bad enough I won't get my new ones til next week#waiting any longer to go to my appointment will mean waiting longer for new glasses#work is not worth being half blind over#I will NOT be in on Tuesday#idc if they refuse to change the schedule#They're veibg warned in that case. that I will not be in#I will not call out if they decide not to change the schedule to fit my availability#and they better not mark me as a no call no show when I don't come in in that case#they are getting their call out notice already. they can go fuck themselves#fuck this job#if we weren't on the cusp of a recession it'd be easier to find a new job#that and ths suburban hellhole barely has any options for non college graduates that it makes it harder to find new job opportunities#no point in complaining about that rn#sam's rants about life
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